By Allison Gingras
Today, I will renew my Total Consecration to Jesus Through Mary for the 7th time. My methods and materials have varied widely, so has my effort. I have followed the method put forth in Fr. Michael Gaitley’s 33 days to Morning Glory, Fr. Ed Broom’s new Total Consecration book (Sophia Institute Press), and my latest find, Montfort Publications’ Preparation for Total Consecration. I have loved all three and will keep each in my re-Consecration rotation.
My seven Consecration experiences happened in various ways as well; accomplished through participating in a small group, following a Total Consecration App, and this time, with virtually with an online community. In some of my consecration journeys, I have been meticulous in reciting every prayer and even the Rosary every day. This go-around I was distracted by the recent loss of my father, then a Scoliosis diagnosis for my twelve-year-old daughter; there were happy distractions during these 33-days as well. Specifically, the publication of my new Stay Connected Journal for Catholic Women series.
At the conclusion of Mass, on this feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe, I will recite my re-Consecration prayer. The Lord knows most days I barely finished my reading and reflections and had many days of missed prayers, yet I have no doubt he, through his Blessed Mother, will joyfully welcome my renewed devotion.
The initial decision to make the consecrate to Jesus through his Blessed Mother, Mary, came many years ago in Rio De Janeiro during World Youth Day. Those profound moments of faith discovered on a pilgrimage that I wanted to bring home with me. When my parish offered Total Consecration preparation using 33 days to Morning Glory, I knew it was the answer to my prayer. This simple act would bring me the intimacy with Christ I longed for, lead there by the woman who knows him best.
Honestly, I’m at peace with each of my Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary journeys. The preparation completed “perfectly” as well as the times I was a hot mess. The Catholic Church has a rich, beautiful tradition of prayer, as I learned when WINE offered When Women Pray as its 2017 Fall WINE Book Club. When you open your heart to the Lord, he does not care how perfectly you do so, just that you do.
Today, the Total Consecration prayers recited to myself after Mass will come with a renewal of my commitment to know Christ better. This promise will be as heartfelt and genuine as the ones given during less distracted times in my life. Each Consecration, this peaceful surrender of myself to the Will of God and his love for me, comes with its own set of blessings. The Lord sees my heart and knows me, which makes my discombobulated Consecration preparation not a surprise to him … at all.
How do you feel when your prayer life gets messy? Do you accept it knowing that eventually, you will have time or energy to clean up your prayer act? Or are you content in the Lord’s love knowing he is not judging your prayer performance but delighted to have any time you offer?
Allison Gingras is the founder of ReconciledToYou.com – where she shares the beauty of the Catholic Faith with honesty, laughter, and relatable examples from the everyday, ordinary life! She has created the Stay Connected Journals for Catholic Women(Gracewatch.Media/Connected) which includes her first book, The Gift of Invitation: 7 Ways Jesus Invites Us into a Life of Grace. Allison hosts A Seeking Heart with Allison Gingras on BreadboxMedia.com Allison is a Social Media Consultant for Kennedy Brownrigg Group and Online Book Club Specialist with WINE: Women in the New Evangelization.